The Best Critique? Make Something New

A portrait of the artist as a young crank

Sarah Smith
8 min readAug 13, 2021
Thanks, I hate it. // Photo by Katie Gerrard on Unsplash

Is She Weird

When I was a teenager, I had a lot to say about how much certain things sucked. The fact that my high school marching band would, in all seriousness, hold a prayer before the halftime show? Sucked. My math teacher who routinely ignored the girls when we raised our hands to answer a question? Sucked. Titanic? Sucked, although to this day, I haven’t seen it. (I was, and am, beautifully skilled at forming opinions of things I haven’t seen.) Once I got my hands on Bust magazine, Bitch magazine, and package upon package of protointersectional feminist zines that went deep on the Michigan Women’s Music Festival’s transphobic nonsense (sucked), I got a whole new framework for describing the suckage.

I was, more or less, a tireless rant that only stopped to sing along with the Violent Femmes, pore over a dELiA*s catalogue, or eat Morningstar Chik’n Nuggets. Most of my sentences began thus: “Do you know what I really hate?”

Looking back on it now, I think this era of my life was a perfectly understandable one. Northern Appalachia isn’t the kindest place to grow up as a feminist art freak. Before I gained access to my critical vocabulary, I just sort of felt wrong all the time. It was incredibly powerful to be able to…

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Sarah Smith

Novelist. Tarotist, poet, lazy Virgo. Nothing is real; magic is real. Writing is a way to see in the dark. sarahelainesmith.com, @braindoggies